The STIR

Yesterday Ms Pey invited me for a quick bite with her.
I innocently followed her to Toast Box and as we were eating, we discussed about the retreat, things that the KK commented about us. Yes especially US the vgians.

The conversation reached its peak when we talk about "who am I?".

I think I am just me... Audrey.
I don't see the need to bring to others attention my job title.
Especially towards my peers.
I do not agree that I am devaluing myself or things I do.
I know perfectly well what I am doing. Job title is merely a name that ties to ur responsibilities.
I do not see it as something great.

At this point you may wanna say since its ntg great why then am I "hiding"?
To me its nothing, yet many times when I reveal my title, pple will go "wow".
I dislike this kind of uninvited attention.
Or rather I was brought up in this manner to stay low profile and not flaunt our "fame/achievement".

Should the occassion and the need arise, for instance in a business meeting of coz I will present my title to them.

Ms Pey was telling me that I should have only ONE identity.
By having so many different faces when dealing with different group of people will cause the dissonance in me, and prevent me from performing better.

This causes much disturbance within me and that is why you see me complaining away.
Coz I was initially at peace with myself.
And I am irritated by this intruding uncertainty.

RWAR!!!

However, after a good nite's sleep.
This no longer bothers me.
I am still Audrey Choy, ONE identity.
Job title is just something to tie to my job scope. ^^V