Just to rant...

I know I haven't been in the best of state lately...
Probably I am torn between different aspects of life...
However, I DO NOT regret going through this phase... coz I really learn alot.
I appreciate the different perspectives presented to me by various people.

Probably because I am not a competitive person by nature.
So that is why I am not propelled forward.
Why do I have to be fault for not being someone I am not?

I am really learning.. everyday.
Though sometimes it is painful & tired battling alone.. when no one understands what you are going through and there is no support...
I am shaping my thoughts and always taking into consideration the things people tell me.
Of coz at the same time, I am starting to do things that I am supposed to do.

Today someone made a comment about me and I was pretty upset by it.
If I am really what the person claimed me to be, I am cool with it.
But the fact is I am NOT! I feel misjudged... misunderstood...
Infact I emo for a few hours. Its been a long while since the last time I felt like this... Nevertheless I got over it a few hours later.

I know people have been saying things.. (and I am NOT assuming) but I seriously think the person should have find out more before making the comment.
Anyway, I have decided not to let the person and the comment affects me.

Today Ken ask me a question during my individual meeting.
He ask since money can't drive me, what will?
I finally have the answer after this mini episode... 一口气！

I don't care how others comment about my speed... I am fully aware of what I want now and I will geddit!

Anyway, I just wanna rant... there is NO NEED to ask me about it. =)

A new beginning~

New beginning.. i am waiting for inputs from you guys..

i share my own.. This is an even more exciting year.. although we seldom talk about our success.. Just to inform your, we have currently 70 students!! at this period of time last year, we might not have even 35!! of course some might say we are over-staffed.. honestly speaking.. i learn alot from hiring. i will blog my philosophy of hiring once i get the hang of it. The secret in true retirement is in building people, building organisation, building dreams!! i have to accompalish this dream by 30!! Jia Hui cannot wait already.. always saying i am not accompanying her!! i will devote my time to building a lasting system for true retirement!! YEAH!!

If you even see this...

It hit me today, how this is really going downhill. Feeling a tad helpless. No one's really blogging and updating tasklist anymore. Probably only silly me. I don't know why I am still doing it, probably just the faith that this will influence you? My belief that I have to do & show to influence? Must push comes to shove?? Anyhow, many times, I just felt incompetent to lead this group, and it is as if it's a personal effort to push. Why are you guys waiting?? Is it that I do not demand? Enforce? My nature of leading by example is definitely not inspiring. It hit me that day, AC when you replied "it's not helping me...." when I asked about the blogging and tasklist. I appreciate the reply. It goes to show, this is just not working out, and no one's saying it.

I do not wish to call it quits. I do believe that this will help. Or at least, I hope. Creating the environment can help this much, and I do need the support too if this is gonna carry on. I urge all to start from within. If you truly think this is crap, say it. Pls do not go through the motion, or just avoid this anymore. It's four here, not one.

ok, ranted enough. I had sent the tracking list by the time you read this. And what I had just done is not about going through the motion. I do feel stretched too, yet truly want to do the best I can. This responsibility for growth on all is big, HUGE. I need the strength, reaffirmation from you pple that you still want to be in this together. I know it can be draining at times, and we all have things overwhelming, get lost in our own stuff at times, get tired along the way etc. Yet, all I want is for us to share, to stretch together and download any challenges. We are not even talking. really. and sometimes, I do not know where to start too, so, pls, speak your mind. Maybe our natures is really a support group, the tracking is not our style, i really don't know.

I probably getting too emo on this. Maybe a pang of thoughts. well, it got to start somewhere, I think there's no better time than now to let my thoughts flow and be open about how I feel.

Speak pls.

A.S.S week

Heya!
Blogging time - just some time to reflect on my week and I realised that my ass had been kicked by A.S.S (more so than the students!). It's been more hectic than normal lessons as I was going (almost) crazy with the influx of students taking the level up! There was literally no gap between students and it was like mega 1x1 consecutively, back to back, sometime, 6 students at one time, and up to 4 different levels/topics at a go! Xiong!

Yet, I would say it was worth it. I believed that no one, no one had ever pushed these groups of students to 90%. Very few had ever experienced at their current level, how it's like to be holding >90%. Yet, we did it. It's amazing! Their faces of relief and joy, that they had done it is my reward.

I can now understand the saying "when you demand on others, you demand much more from yourself". When I demand that 90% from them, I am literally demanding 101% from myself. I am happily exhuasted. Time to sleep!

ppuuurrrrRrr ...

dear vgians,

after a long hiatus, I have jus posted an advo blog as well as VG blog as well as VG goals.
its already march & it seemed like time flew by, though i felt that some of my time has been well spent.

this week was totally hectic for me, sometimes I felt i was literally rushing against time, & i felt like a ticking time bomb. i think it was due to ASS preparations as well as the actual days itself,
nonetheless, it was a GREAT experience & a fruitful one as well, despite the drain in energy and lots of time taken, it was actually a breath of fresh air & a new mini milestone for Advo in general. I would love to share more personal thoughts if anyone wants to ask me hehehe ...

i am rushing to study for a midterm exam this wed. & also a presentation after the exam.
TATAS.

INFJ to ENFJ

Ken sent a link on the Myer-Briggs test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm

If you haven't done it, please give it a go!

I had done this a few years back and consistently, I was an INFJ (till the point I left my previous job). Interestingly over the one odd year, I have evolved to an ENFJ. Consistently over 2 separate occasions, I am getting the same results (done the same test a few months back and also a few days back).

The same had been for my Strengths test. They had changed along the way... (now I too wonder about my DISC score, and if that has changed too).

This goes to show, we are constantly evolving. What had happened made me who I am today. And today, whatever I do, the choices I make, will eventually be who I am tomorrow. :)

Peers' help..

Dear all,

I am grateful for the help that pey and audrey showered yesterday. I know all of us are seeking growth. I am happy that your are doing your best to help. Let's work on creating a better world! A Vgian world, that is free of limitation, living in abundance, and pro Life whether they are plants or animals or human!

blurson

ATTENTION!

Realize waisun n xinyi have not been blogging, updating n reviewing their goals. Even for me i realize i am merely gg thru motion. Doing for the sake of doing. Only pey is the most consistent. Y are the both of u not blogging? Too busy? Then again there is no excuse rite? Also we hvnt been meeting as agreed. Something very wrg? Other than the dinner session of coz. It feels like gg back to square one.

I subscribe to the newsletters of Anthony Fernando. This is something from him that I just dig out...

In order to achieve your goals in life, the only things you really need are:
(1) A crystal clear picture of what you want
(2) An unshakeable determination to do whatever it takes to make your dream a reality

As soon as you take these two steps, anything becomes possible. If you need a new skill - you learn it. If you come up against an obstacle - you find a way around it. If you experience failure - you learn from your mistake and adopt a different approach.

I am not sure if any of you feels the same but as I look back on my results... probably I am not willing to pay the price for my goals.

In order to achieve any goal in life, all you have to do is
(1) Decide what goal you want to achieve
(2) Be willing and able to pay the price associated with achieving that goal

You really can have anything you want in life as long as you fulfills the 2 criteria above.

Are we willing to do whatever it takes for our dreams?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkCFeNeqyHk&feature=player_embedded

Cooper Dream

Hey VGians,

Be careful what you wish for :P

Cooper's in my life. From the last incidence of my sis-in-law getting the EXACT cooper on my dream board, it's amazing how this manifestation of a desire comes into my life in different ways!

Just went for a Hello Kitty gathering and met this new friend who's planning to get a mini cooper.

Man, talk about law of attraction!!

Cooooool!!

Happy CNY!!!

It's the time of the year, of reunion and gathering. As time passed, I realised how much we had all grown. Cousins shot up in a minute span of a year. Uncles, aunties that I hardly seen, aged. Yet some questions remained the same - when are you getting married. haha, some things never changed ;P

CNY has evolved as I aged. A time when I looked forward to getting those red packets to a time when I look forward to a little breather and catch up with those that I hardly seen.

Anyways, have a happy Lunar New Year! May this year be one of great bliss and wealth, abundance of well wishes and grace :)

A.S.S

Dear all,

Please spend all the time you can to make A.S.S a Great Success..

I have seen many projects that are being done for the seek of doing. And i hope A.S.S can deliver the type of promise that we gave to our valuable parents.

Things that i will be focusing on:

1. PUSH and HYPE up all students for this challenge.

2. DEMAND and be SUPER STRINGENT about the whole level-up challenge to make sure what they have gone through is not a routine on our side, rather more like something that Gurantee their chances to score.

3. Please get all the Wristband & flow & structure up as time is running out especially close to CNY

4. Make use of this as a SUPER marketing tools. Imagine your class got 100% for CA1 and what can you post into the website for marketing?? it will be FANTASTIC!

5. Do help us on this cause i welcome all ideas to make this the GREATEST SUCCESS in Advo!

Gambateh!!

Blurson..

Daily bites

I am starting small, laddering into bigger steps and then leaps.

VRA plan:
1) exercise daily - 20min.
2) a big bowl of raw vegetables daily.
3) protein shake for breakfast.
4) sufficient rest - 7hrs.
5) flush body with water - min 2 litres.

Been doing this for the past 7 days - How's your VRA plan coming along VGians??

meow!

Who's Blogging??

VGians, time to blog!

Anyways, flu/cough/runny-nose not clearing up yet - culprit no other than me, been stubborning drinking my coffee and not really flushing water. Today, it came to a point that I felt I am coughing my guts out so there, no more stubbornness - I am gonna get this out of my system and back to my good old self by 01Feb10 (mind-healing...ommmm).

This VRA is not really working out. I am gonna adopt my past 90-days challenge outside in approach and track it like a 90days project. So who's in?!?!

Hardly hear from you on the blog, ping me if you're keen!

Flu bug go away

I feel sick. It's been a long while since I felt so sick. It's a combination of physical, mental and emotional ache when the flu gets to me. Why? Cos physically I feel weak and feeling weak, I feel that I am not able to operate optimally and when that happens, things going through me just get compromised. Oh how oh how can I reverse the process? I can't go through a sentence without being interrupted by my cough. And now with the runny nose, I am wrapping "wantons" ever so often!

Bug flu bug, fly fly away.

It's funny how little thought one has for health till one fall sick. Plans are running through my mind to get myself healthy when I get healthy! How crazy is that? Yet, am doing nothing cept to wallow in this self pity. haha. ok, time to stop ranting. I am going back to my planning for the week. VRA seemed to be dwindling among the VGians. We got to make it work! I guess I have to enforce it on myself to enforce on others... it starts from me.

Drink your water!!!
Exercise!!
Sleep.

Bug flu bug, fly fly away.

2010 Week 1

Yesterday missed the submission dateline and was late for meeting today (though i wanted to be punctual for meetings in 2010).
I came back for my jog yst nite, online abit and literally knocked off.

Hmm... Its only the first week of the year and I feel I am overwhelmed by the stuffs on hand.

This is a VERY different pace compared to 2009.

I realised I have been working close to 12hrs daily.
I leave Advo looking at the clock and tell myself that I will be back in less than 12hrs.

Yes, I know this is the package that comes with 10mil.

Maybe alot of you or even successful people have shared that this is the price to pay to success.

However, I would very much want to be more effective, efficient and stream line my work.

Nowadays when I look at Waisun, I really envy him. He has a team to work with.
Jean doing the admin, Jiahe doing part of the science coaching and XY doing the math coaching.
He seems to be quite eng or rather have the luxury to focus on business development.
On the other hand. I see myself doing almost everything myself at GH for my biz unit.
I am resolute to recruit my coaches (Pey! I really need your help here FAST!).
I must learn to delegate and leverage.
I also realised that I am always shortchanging myself.
In the sense that if there are students who wish to attend lesson on my off days, I usually compromise to come back for them.
Even on my off day, I allow myself to come back to attend meetings etc.
Seriously, unless it is very important for me to be back, I think I will start to say NO.
Coz if I keep giving in to myself, there will be no end.
I feel it is unhealthy.
One of the items on my wishlist is to be happy by feeling the balance between work and personal life/leisure.

Yes yes, maybe at this point of time you may be bombarding me (esp. WAISUN!) why do I use the word WORK or tik of it as WORK.
However, I am sorry I still fail to see it your way.
I stand by my Work hard & play hard!

This will be a better week.

Wishlist 2010

Had been doing wishlist with my kids. This had been an amazing exercise for me and the kids. I realized that the kids, like many people that I met, do not know what they really want, even if they are given the power to have anything they want. Holding the "magical paper" in their hand, writing their wishes down is probably an exercise they had never done before. Suddenly, when the power is given to them to dream, to demand what they want from life, they were lost. Most were skeptical. Very few indulged in the moment of just wishing away. It deemed clearer to me, how important it is for me as a coach, to ignite the desire in them, to discover with them their capacity to dream and to enhance their ability to realise their dreams. For a start, I got to show them that it's doable, it's possible, it's EASY! I shared my dreamboard with a few, openly commiting my goals to them and have them track me.

It would be awesome to dream together and realise dreams together.

PS: Tomorrow's the Os results. I have absolute faith that the hard work and fun we put in in 2009, will have a fruitful results :)

my 1st post of the year!!

Dear Vgians!!

its my 1st post of the year & i think we really need to put ourselves on track, such as with the regular blogging & posting of goals by 2359 of every sunday.

anyway, 2010 is one of the only years in which i didnt write any new year resolutions.
as lynn put it in the advoblog, once u have ur dreamboard, u dont actually need resolutions as i believe our ultimate dreams are much much much bigger than any yearly resolution, even though every month & year we are doing something which contributes to those bigger dreams.

as psychologist Gestalt says, "the whole is more than the sum of its parts".

2010 is also an exciting year for me because i am going to finally GRADUATE,
& also we are going to embark on an exciting VRA,
& i am going to do things i have never done before in my life.

during tdy's & ystdy's meeting,
somehow i keep having the feeling that we can do whatever we are asked to do or challenged to do,
we can do whatever that needs to be done to achieve our ultimate goals,
however we always stop/pause/hesitate/avoid having to go through new experiences or step out of our comfort zone because of self-doubt.

i dont even think fear or uncertainty is the issue.

without self-doubt, there will not be fear & uncertainty.

thus my 2010 goal is to RECOGNIZE my own self doubt,
especially whenever it is setting in,
which means i have to monitor my thoughts/feelings closely,
& i hope VGIANS will HELP me overcome it whenever i recognize a self-doubt.

i gratefully thank all of u VGIANS in advance, for being part of my dreambuilding process of 2010 :)

cheers to everyone!!! :D

Welcome 2010!!!

Yeah~ Its the first week of the year.
Chionging time!!!

ALL of us have slacked for the past week.
No one updated last sunday. haha~
Okie, give ourselves a little treat before we embarked on the adventure of 2010.

Hmm.. It is really a chaotic year in 2009 and I really work hard & play hard.

As for this year.. lotsa new responsibilities and GREAT targets to hit.
However, with the power of everyone we will achieve!

Some energy is required to kick start the year.
I was dreading the coming of monday on sunday.
However, as monday unfolds and momentum kicks in, the engine started rolling.
I feel good.

One of my friends commented that I am absurdly positive.
Guess what I told him? I have never been happier in my life before.
So I am on the right path!
Life is beautiful! Does all of u still remb ur tagline for 2010? *grin*

I am looking forward to the Dec Taiwan trip w u pple.

11 mths to achieve our targets! Exciting exciting!!!

I will update my goals for the month and the week tonight. =)

Reflection of 2009

It'll be 4 more hours to my flight to BKK for my little retreat - recharge, revitalise and renew within and without. I am really grateful for 2009. It had been a fantastic year, and seldom had I ever felt so much going on for a very long time. Eventful, change and growth will be the 3 key words I would use to sum up my 2009.

- KY's establishment, getting my own pool of clientele - green in my calendar
- Managing coaching at both KY and Advo - green and (more) purple in my calendar
- PR in Jun09
- Finding joy in coaching, in whichever platform - love the relations built with my students and peers
- Taking on a BU in Advo
- Making a decision to focus in AC in 2010
- CTC, am an Advocoach - full pledge
- Making a decision to train coaches.
- The birth of my second niece

Next year will be a brilliant year, a great great year and I am so excited and looking forward to ginormous growth in 2010! Here's to all, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! :)