It hit me today, how this is really going downhill. Feeling a tad helpless. No one's really blogging and updating tasklist anymore. Probably only silly me. I don't know why I am still doing it, probably just the faith that this will influence you? My belief that I have to do & show to influence? Must push comes to shove?? Anyhow, many times, I just felt incompetent to lead this group, and it is as if it's a personal effort to push. Why are you guys waiting?? Is it that I do not demand? Enforce? My nature of leading by example is definitely not inspiring. It hit me that day, AC when you replied "it's not helping me...." when I asked about the blogging and tasklist. I appreciate the reply. It goes to show, this is just not working out, and no one's saying it.
I do not wish to call it quits. I do believe that this will help. Or at least, I hope. Creating the environment can help this much, and I do need the support too if this is gonna carry on. I urge all to start from within. If you truly think this is crap, say it. Pls do not go through the motion, or just avoid this anymore. It's four here, not one.
ok, ranted enough. I had sent the tracking list by the time you read this. And what I had just done is not about going through the motion. I do feel stretched too, yet truly want to do the best I can. This responsibility for growth on all is big, HUGE. I need the strength, reaffirmation from you pple that you still want to be in this together. I know it can be draining at times, and we all have things overwhelming, get lost in our own stuff at times, get tired along the way etc. Yet, all I want is for us to share, to stretch together and download any challenges. We are not even talking. really. and sometimes, I do not know where to start too, so, pls, speak your mind. Maybe our natures is really a support group, the tracking is not our style, i really don't know.
I probably getting too emo on this. Maybe a pang of thoughts. well, it got to start somewhere, I think there's no better time than now to let my thoughts flow and be open about how I feel.
Speak pls.
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Agree.. we shld start asking ourselves if this is a good-to-have or must-have?
If its the former den we can forget about it.
Yet if its the latter, we wldnt have come to this stage and oso stop meeting up regularly due to the reason BUSY...Nights are too late etc.
I will share why I stop doing it coz it is losing the meaning. I set the goals and be it I achieved ornot, no one notice. Or say even if any do notice its undone, I dun hear antg from u all. Yes, I agree its my own success, y do I need others to push/nudge me. However, aint that the purpose of having VG in the 1st plc? To be committed to each other's growth? Correct me if I am wrong. To me if I have to set goals and track myself, seriously I dun have to bother to upload onto this blog.
Pey, I think you have done wad u can by setting examples n continuing on your own etc. Thank you!
I just want to ask a qns - Truthfully & honestly.. right from the start, is it really at the back of everyone's mind that we are committed to each other's growth deeply?
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